Confessions from an exhausted healer

  • I’m not a visionary or evolutionary expert, pioneer or master.
  • I’ve not been doing this for years.  That’s not quite true. I’ve been doing it for 2.  In the current fashion for 18 months.
  • I’m not on a ‘spiritual’ path.  That phrase has no meaning to me.
  • I’m not going to talk to you about different levels or aspects of self because until you realize you are one, you won’t know the experience of one.  It’s my opinion the more you slice and dice yourselves into little bits; create internal and external hierarchies, bureaucracies and separateness within and without in an effort to understand yourselves,  you cannot see the wholeness, the one of you.
  • I don’t use words like ‘activation’, ‘transmission’, ‘attunement’.  They don’t suit me or the energy that moves through me for others.  I think they confuse and diminish the truth and the rawness of the experience.  I just share.
  • I don’t care much about Christ consciousness. I’m more interested in mine and yours.
  • I’m not going to tell you everything is consciousness, energy or, even, love. I think that’s a lazy man’s version of trying to understand the world and is an easy way out when one cannot understand the complexities of relationships.
  • I’m tired of trying to come up with tag lines and titles that will help me stand out from the herd (and, yes, there’s a herd).
  • I feel just as alone and as much of an outsider now at 42 as I did when I was 4, 12 and 24.  Even as I know who I am and my role.
  • I don’t know if everyone can heal or not.  I suspect not because, well, we’re all different.  It’s sorta nifty that way.
  • Evolution occurs all of the time. Between each breath we morph, move, shed, grow.
  • I don’t have a thing to teach anyone.  I’m just going to show you a thing or two through experience.
  • Oneness is not a spiritual concept or idea.  It is a way of living.  It is an awareness every minute of the connection to all.  It does not mean that ‘there is no other’.  It means we’re all ‘others’ together, connected through visible and invisible relationships.
  • For me, these relationships are represented in distinct or amorphous sensations.
  • The essence of me and power in & of me is greater than any words that I can use to describe what flows through me.
  • You are not empty.  You are more filled than you can imagine.
  • I’m not necessarily going to show up in the way you think I should. I’m just going to show up.
  • I’ve not slept in 28 hours and have my cranky pants on.  I’ve not slept because electric fire is moving out of my hands, feet, head, heart and belly; and, liquid lightening is moving up, down and around my limbs.
  • I’m not an expert in energetic healing.  I’m only an expert in me and that level of expertise changes as I do.
  • I think most of the ‘awakening’, ‘consciousness’, ‘enlightenment’,  stuff is a lot like organic food from China.
  • I think I’m feeling desperate to be seen, to stand away from the herd, and suggest there is a lot less to be said and more work to be done.
  • I’m afraid but doing stuff anyway.  I mean, planning a trip to the UK with having air tickets or place to stay?  Wacky or not, I’m acting like it’s gonna happen.
  • I don’t think people should be concerned with transcending themselves.  It’s my opinion that when they do that they miss themselves in the process.  I think once one actually knows their self, they’ll quite like where they are.
  • I ask people to intentionally stay uncomfortable.  Seriously.  I do.  Then I get to watch them watch the discomfort vanish.  Odd, no?
  • I’m not spiritual.  I don’t have faith or beliefs.  Others’ stories about ‘life stuff’ don’t resonate with me or the work I do.
  • What I do is more than ‘energy medicine’ although it is medicinal.  Although illness, pain and disease often dissolve and disappear.
  • I’m pretty sure your soul doesn’t need to be retrieved.  It doesn’t get lost like socks.
  • When you ask me a question about ascension, I’m going to ask you what you’re trying to ascend away from.
  • I think the sales techniques of this growing cottage market of ‘healing’, ‘abundance’,’authenticity’, ‘spiritual technologies’ resembles that of big pharma.
  • I don’t want to be part of that but I don’t know to increase my exposure.
  • You don’t need secret codes, pretty packages, special programs or technologies.
  • I know I can’t do anything else.
  • I know that when I’m called, I must follow the call.
  • I know that when I breathe in service to others, I change, they change, the world changes.
  • I know myself–the core of me–and I am the essence of all those that have come before me on the same path. Those that stood alone, stood loudly in passion, purpose and Grace; shaped mountains and moved men with truth, light and compassion.  We are our legacy and I will represent it as best I can.
  • I’m hungry.   No. Really. I’m hungry.

And, I really think I need a nap but bod isn’t agreeing with me.

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6 thoughts on “Confessions from an exhausted healer

  1. Hi Ingrid, I have just watched your video’s and I must congratulate you on your refreshing honesty. There is so much speculation about things we don’t understand and if it baffled Einstein their isn’t much hope for me, perhaps it should be enough to just experience life and to love, I love you too, thank you, kind regards, Joe.

  2. Thanks for sharing this: if I felt more together lately I could of prob written this. Life hasnt been too kind for several years now and I feel lost a lot and overwhelmed. Exhausted doesnt cover it. I need sleep and am so hungry. Am tired of people asking me for advice and then arguing that I don’t understand them. So go away already, I think and then say. Nice to meet you Ingrid. Wish I had found this weeks ago.

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