Tangled Web

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Wave after wave of grief & pain.

Not the colossal waves that shred, cleanse and renew but hints.  Small little ripples teasing, a prelude to what is to come.

 

I don’t know as I’ve ever given much consideration to the anything called an ultimate betrayal.  I thought I might have experienced that as a child.

 

But this is altogether different. I’ve been lured into a place of trusting, loving, open-heartedness, open-leggedness, into the twistedness of another’s true nature.  Brought into the role of lover and used as a pawn in someone else’s depravity.  Elaborate weaving entirely unnecessary when simplicity of offering of love & comfort would suffice. 

 

To what end? I could suppose to satisfy some personal need.  I could delude myself into thinking that the nature that drew me to love is really behind these masks of deception.    I could.  I won’t. 

 

I’ll just wait for the maddening, deafening, crashing of it all and then dive in and through. 

 

Although a solid right hook connecting to a jaw would feel really, really good!

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2 thoughts on “Tangled Web

  1. Sorry about the all the pain and drama human relations can bring. After being married 3 times with lots of in betweens, my solution was to get a cat or two. That is the only love you need and no complications. To me ,Love has a tail and four paws. Oh and learn how to knit. Both of these travel well Trust me it works. Love you Sweetie. Sandy
    PS The other alternitive is to cultivate a Lesbian lifestyle, but that can get dramatic too.LOL!!!!! There is always the question ” Who’s on Top”!!!! LOL

  2. Ingrid, apropos of nothing in particular, I came across these videos.  I watched How to Go to the Drive Thru, Jack Hates Kisses, and then when I was watching Tisha UnArmed Answers Questions I thought of you.  I think because her self-assurance, cheerfulness, and speech cadence remind me of you.

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