Morning Wakening

This morning I was wakened

in a dream

with both gratitude and grief.

The knowledge of how much your presence
and your absence in my life

has always meant to me

Brought a teary-eyed smile

and I knew love.

I just didn’t know it

then.

The night before last was a fitful one.  One dog barked until 1:00 AM.  Another one carried the chorus until two-ish.  Bleary-eyed, I let the whole herd out at 4:30 and was, blessedly, allowed to go back to sleep. Finally.

And you entered my head. Again. You keep popping up in such a way that you may as well apply for permanent residence.

In my head. In my dream bed. The one you crawled into early this morning.  Slipped in behind me, slid your hands into mine and held on to me as tightly as I should have held on to you.

And, in that dream-not-dream moment, I knew that I’d known love from the first person who ever saw me. Really saw me.  Who kept me from drowning and lit my way long ago.

Thank you.

 

I love you.

 

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One thought on “Morning Wakening

  1. Hello dear Ingrid. My goodness, when I read this, I felt this was something I have written before. I know this feeling, this knowing of love and waking with their energy in our thoughts, hearts and soul. I even understand about the dogs barking all night keeping me awake, I surely can relate. I know love like this; it is never away from me, always a part of me, of my total being. I especially resonate with, “And, in that dream-not-dream moment, I knew that I’d known love from the first person who ever saw me. Really saw me. Who kept me from drowning and lit my way long ago.” Yes, the one who really sees me, from inside out. I think you and I woke to the same thing today.
    Love to you dear one and blessings, Mysti~Fran

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