In the introduction to this series on Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Children, I mentioned that this unfolding of the Fuckery and I
requires discussion of history and the repercussion arisen out of it, trauma experienced and held by peoples and the natural world, realities of misogyny, sexuality, institutionalized racism, the reemergence of what I call ‘the medicine way’ and where all those things converge in our current era.
I think the thing that frightens people the most is the reemergence of the ‘medicine way’. It means recognizing that beliefs and ways of the world are more than theoretical or ceremonial, beyond the scope of encultured ‘sacred space’, and are neither ours nor out there. It creates an inescapable ‘in your face’ expression of truth that makes beliefs true or untrue, redefines things of spirit held as personal or tribal into universal, and cuts the commodified crap connected to the aforementioned in a breath. It means that death isn’t what we’ve thought it is, that everyone really is connected beyond super-simplified popsychospiritmeme-ified oneness. It means we have responsibilities beyond what we’ve presumed revealed within sweat lodges, by the one-liners of protest signs and attention-grabbing headlines. It means prophecy can be true, cosmologies can crumble, and we really may not who or how (or why) we think we are.
It frightens lawmen, lawyers, politicians, medicine men, journalists, folks who once called me friend, and those who operate the Fuckery. It’s why a tribal historical preservation officer nearly scorched his shorts when I asked about an eagle. Because it can’t be true but what if it is. If it is, we have to kill her. If it’s not we have to see who is really giving her all this information, then kill her.
I was once asked by one of the more lazy cops I’ve ever met, “So, is it like talking to God?” when I went to talk to him about Jermaine Charlo. His syrupy derision was no different than the “Why are my ancestors coming to you?” Sadly, I’m not one skilled with witty repartee and it didn’t occur to me until much later to say, “No, conversations with God are much more direct.” They are but for all the church-going, Bible shaking, and God-loving, to tell people there are active conversations with God is a nullifying as explaining those with Ancestors.
Whether those who would like to put an additional hole in my head (or anyone else) believe this or not, these are those who ‘tell Ingrid too much’
They are Coushatta, Cree, Muscogee, Maidu, Diné, Dene.
They are Lakota, Dakota, Comanche, Choctaw, and Apache.
They are Kickapoo, Meskwaki, Mi’maq, Tongva, and Gros Ventre.
They are Ojib, Ohkay Owingeh, Mewuk, Osage, Missouria, Potowatami, Quapaw, Quinault.
They are Rappahannock, Paiute, Pascato, Seminole, Shawnee and Chickahominey.
They are Sappony, Seneca, Waccamaw, Natchez, Niitsitapi, Cherokee, Mohawk, and Miccosuckee.
Onandagan, Cheyenne, Crow, Unitah, Calusa, Colusa, Appalachee.
Fox, Saux, Winnebago, Miami, Illini, Ioway and Omaha.
Arapaho, Otoe, Kiowa, Caddo, Coahuiltecan, Kutenai, and Pend d’Oreilles.
Nakoda, Yurok, Chumash, Yokuts and Yana.
Nahuatl, Mixtec, Mayo, Massai, and Huichol, O’odham and Tepehuan.
Guaraní, Cocopah, Dogon, Delaware, Sara, Salish, Tatar, Bua and Bantu.
Samí, Bedu, Yoruba, Ibibio, Damara, Pueblan. Altai, Mapuche and Quechua.
Abenaki, Mohigan, Wawenock, Acholi, Madu, Evenki.
Salish, Kumeyaay, Ohlone, Pomo, Skykomish, Yakama.
The sand speaks, clouds halt, rain and stag protect, horses signal, ground and eagles pull, bees direct, water leads, raven weaves with spider, snake and worm connect threads where others can’t go. Wings whisper, trunks kiss my face, Nagas sing, devas dance. Creation twins create anew.
They know. They see.
Hundreds more who trust me with their living kin whose prayers they have heard, whose cries for freedom they echo across the universe and pound through my dreams– insistent, repetitive beats of love. They give me medical advice, tell me when to run and when to be still, wait. They tell me to ‘stop with the questions’, ‘sit down and shut up’, ‘Speak, child. Speak.”
They ride the wind, thunder through clouds, beat my heart, sing my soul, cry my tears, soothe and sear my skin. They guide, they tattle on the twisted medicine men, they show the limbless torsos.
And we live and breathe and move as one.